My daily prayer...

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything in prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. Philippians 4:6

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Reflections...



I remember the quite lonely nights of an empty house. One that we never wanted to have. 6 years of trying to have a family, God tested our faith. Starting a family comes easy for some couples, just like finding love. For me, finding love was the easy part. I knew from the minute I met my husband that he was for me. Having a family was the hard part. From the minute we spoke, Jeff and I always taked about having children. It was something we wanted for so long. As the days, months and years past, pregnancies came and went, some quicker then others, but when I lost Joe, I thought my life was over. I thought I would never be a mother.



Then we started the process of Adoption. You hear the horror stories from people you know, or see it in the paper or on TV about the scams that happen. They do happen, and I prayed that they wouldn't happen to us. We had been through enough. Then the call came. I knew from the minute I spoke to our birthmother that she was ours. She was carrying our child. I thought...it is finally our time to be parents. I never in a MILLION years thought my life would be like this. On August 8, 2007 at 2:36pm our son was born. He wasn't just our son. He was the first grandson of my parents, the first greatgrand child of my grandmother. He was the first nephew to my brother and Jeff's sister and he would be the 3rd grandchild of my mother in law. And he would be all of ours. When you look at you baby for the first time, whether you carry that child or adopt that child, you fall in love, your life is forever changed. I can't even imagen what my life would be like without my sweet little baby boy.



This is the song by Steven Curtis Chapman "When love takes you in"



I know you’ve heard the stories But they all sound too good to be true You’ve heard about a place called home But there doesn’t seem to be one for you So one more night you cry yourself to sleep And drift off to a distant dream
Where love takes you in and everything changes A miracle starts with the beat of a heart When love takes you home and says you belong here The loneliness ends and a new life begins When love takes you in
And somewhere while you’re sleeping Someone else is dreaming too Counting down the days until They hold you close and say I love you And like the rain that falls into the sea In a moment what has been is lost in what will be
When love takes you in everything changes A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
And this love will never let you go There is nothing that could evercause this love to lose its hold
When love takes you in everything changes A miracle starts with the beat of a heart When love takes you home and says you belong here The loneliness ends and a new life begins When love takes you in it takes you in for good When love takes you in
FROM THE MINUTE I HELD HIM...HE TOOK ME IN...HE HAD ME AT HELLO!

My sweet baby boy will be a year old tomorrow. A year old...it is true what they say...the first year goes by so fast. Oh to have those moments back of him sleeping in my arms...now all he wants to so is crawl and walk. He was such an easy baby...he slept through the night starting at 3-5 weeks old. I could get a good 10 hours out of him. I thank god everynight for this child of mine. He has such a sweet dispostion. I am so looking forward to watching him grow up to be a fine young man.

11 comments:

Life with my BOYS! said...

Happy Birthday Julien!!

Any happy year as a family to you Colette! I bet you have a great birthday weekend and party planned! Enjoy every second of it!!

Paula said...

Oh, Colette,
What a beautiful post. I never knew about Joe, what a heartbreak that must have been. Now, look how the Lord has blessed you. Julian is such a cute little guy. I have so enjoyed sharing this first year with you and comparing notes as moms. Looking forward to the 2nd year. Happy Birthday, Jules!

Jodi said...

What a beautiful post! Happy Birthday Julian Parker! Can't wait to celebrate your 1st Birthday with you!

Paulette said...

Happy 1st Birthday Julian!!!

Sue said...

Happy Birthday, Julian!!! And Happy anniversay to becoming parents, Colette and Jeff!

Wondering when you will find us said...

Happy 1st birthday Julian!!!!! Look forward to celebrating Sunday cutie pie!:)

Julie said...

Happy Birthday to Julian!! I am a longtime follower of your blog and have so enjoyed sharing in Julian's first year. Many blessings to all of you on Julian's special day!

Julie :)

wsweden said...

Colette
What a beautiful post written from the heart. I hope you save it to share with him when he is older.

Enjoy the big day! Can't wait to see pictures!

ohn said...

I can tell you honestly, it just keeps getting better and better. Every year has its own rewards (with a bit of worry and heartache thrown in) and with my boys now being 19, 18 and 13, I can tell you it is NEVER boring :)

Jen said...

Happy birthday Julian!
Happy Family Day as we call it in our house. Isn't it a miracle? Jeremy and Natalie are 18 1/2 months already...don't blink, it goes so fast and does keep getting better!
Love,
Jen, Bob, Nat & Jer

Debbie B said...

Such a beautiful post and tribute to your son.