My daily prayer...

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything in prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. Philippians 4:6

Friday, February 29, 2008

A house full of sickness...

yes that is what we are! Now my sweet little boy is sick...he has a raspy cough and I can see in his eyes that he just doesn't feel well. He is a little cranky...which he really never is, unless he is hungry or tired. But he is also that doesn't help. It is just a fever yet (keeping fingers crossed) So here we are all sick...yuck! So I am hoping for a fast recovery. I have missed work all week, and need to get back! Rates have dropped again and business is going to pick up. So email me if you need a mortgage...locally or out of state...I can do it! I am going to take some pictures this weekend.

Oh...Julian is so darn cute...i catch him every now and then looking at his it is something new...he slowly moves his fingers, one at a time...then he is so just wonder what they are thinking..."hey, look at this..."

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

To go private or not...

So I have been thinking...should I or shouldn't I...that is the question. So since I have been home sick for going on 3 days now and 2 of them without and dad took him, so I could rest and get better...I have been thinking. I can see who looks at my blog their locations and IP addresses...that is all well and good, but I still feel like there are people looking on this blog that do not have good intentions. So, if you are a lurker...please post I know who you are...I know some of my friends by their location...out of towners, but locals are a bit harder...I know of on who looks and has posted a nasty unwarranted comment, there for I approve all comments now. (KM) I know that MOST of our lurkers are with good intentions. People who care, people who I talk to in person or on the phone...people I consider friends. So with the next few posts...or ones you have looked at before please stop by and say hi! If you have a blog I would love to add you to my list! So please forward that on too!

This blog was set up to share my daily thoughts. If you don't like what you read...then stop reading this blog. Julian was a blessing from god, and I am so proud to be his mommy.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Being Sick...

is for the birds! I woke up on Saturday with a tickle in my throat...not thinking too much of it...woke up on Sunday with a terrible sore throat and it has only gone down hill since then! I always get sick in February...I thought I was in the such luck! I hope Julian doesn't get sick...I feel like a truck ran me over...and over...and over. I will call the doctor today...but they are a pain...they always want to see me. What ever happened to the days where they would just write a script over the phone...was it when they relized how much they can make in an office visit or just people becoming addicted to RX drugs...well since the my Dr.'s office closes at 4pm and Jeff doesn't get home until 4:30pm today is shot...I think it is just a nasty cold...nothing more...nothing less.

Julian has his first swimming lessons tomorrow night...I think we are getting some bad weather too. Good thing it is close to home. Maybe I will go in the sauna while I am there! Mom and dad are stopping by and we will see if Grandma Terry can make it too. Pictures will follow of course! We have a big ploay date on Saturday that we are both looking forward to. I hope i feel is 6 days away I should! Hugs to all!

Saturday, February 23, 2008

What am I...

I found this on Jodie and Sue's blog so I thought I would try is what i am...and no it doesn't start with a "B" LOL
You Are a Colon
You are very orderly and fact driven.
You aren't concerned much with theories or dreams... only what's true or untrue.

You are brilliant and incredibly learned. Anything you know is well researched.
You like to make lists and sort through things step by step. You aren't subject to whim or emotions.

Your friends see you as a constant source of knowledge and advice.
(But they are a little sick of you being right all of the time!)

You excel in: Leadership positions

You get along best with: The Semi-Colon

It is very true...if I must say so myself! LOL

Friday, February 22, 2008

When is enough...

So, jeff got me this wonderful camera from christmas last year and then a great printer this year to go with it! SO, today I am transfering all the photo's from my camera on to my home computer so I can organize them all.When I inserted the said 715 pictures! 715!!! He is 6 and a hlaf months old...they are all of him! over 100 pictures a month! I think there is something wrong with me...I am obsessed with my kid! I think he is so beautiful and all the pictures are the best...(typical mom!) Good lord!
Julian is going to be attending his first bible study tonight. We were going to have it here, so we didn't make arrangements for Julian...come to find out 2 of our friends couldn't get sitters, so the location has changed. Our house is a good size but just not enough room for 7 kids between the ages of 3 to 12...oh gee they understood...hummmmm I wonder why others in years past didn't. Our house is a perfect place for kids in the summer. We have this huge yard and I see many play dates in it's future.
My rib popped out is so painful! I am so greatful that my parents live close and they don't mind when I need them. I think they would do anythign to see him everyday if they could. There was a house for sale down the street from them, I think secretly they would love to have us there...I would too...Jeff loves our here we stay. It woulsn't matter about the school district...Julian is going to go to private school, and their school district is always top 3 in the maybe we would save a little money but with would be a break even.
Julian is going to be at Nana and Papa's on Saturday to Sunday...I have to work at a bridal show on Sunday and Jeff has things he has to my parents are more then happy to take hm over night...Julian and Papa read the paper cute! Jeff and I are going to go for Susi on Saturday night...nice date night! I am blessed!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Love this picture!!!!
It is a little big for him...
This is the face he makes more now then ever...he is teething...but what a face!

I went shopping today to find some clothes for Julian and I found this adorable hat. So when I came home my mom was feeding him and I had to put it on are some pictures...

Monday, February 18, 2008

A visit with the in-laws...

Here is Lisa (Jeff's sister) with Julian...Alex is behind her and Connor is in the corner.
Here is Jeff's mom, Lisa and the boys...
Here is Alex playing with Julian...

So we get together with Jeff's family a few times a year. This time we went to his mom's house for dinner. Our nephew Alex who will be 7 in March, just loves Julian. When he see's him...he always says..."he is so cute!" Today he was playing with was really cute

So here are a few pictures from our evening. Connor who is 4 really could care less about the baby...and that is fine...he will come around one day. Lisa was pregnant with Connor when we lost baby was very hard for me, but life went on and we have a wonderful baby. My mother in laws boyfriend kept commenting on what a wonderful baby he was...he said he never remembered his kids being that good. His oldest son is a professional body builder. He models for the cover of body building what a body on him...Ron showed us his new is amazing how disaplined he is...Just amazing. Have a great night!

Saturday, February 16, 2008

More Pictures...

These are pictures from Valentine's day. We go out for my Grandmother's birthday. This year she turned 85. My grandmother and I have had our moments...but the way she loves Julian is just the cutest thing. She was NEVER this crazy about my brother or I.

Julian with Nana
Look at that face!!! I could just squeeze those cheeks all day long!
Nonni, Julian and Nana
Julian hugging Nonni
This is what happens to Julian when nana wants a kiss...she just dives in!
He just loves her! It is the cutest thing. Thought I would share.

Today we went to Nana and Papa's house. We try to go over every other saturday. Today, he isn't so happy...his teeth are cutting and I am sure it is painful. So he is in his exersaucer...watching the Westminster Dog Show. On Monday we are going to my MIL's for dinner so I will post pictures of the boys!

Friday, February 15, 2008

What to do...

well...Julian went down at 7:30pm sound asleep! now Jeff is sleeping on the couch...and it is 8pm on a friday night...what is a girl to do? I love a quite house. I guess since we were married for 6.5 years before Julian came home, I am use to it being quite. Hearing the creaks of an old house...the snoring of my husband...the white noise from the monitor...all these sounds you can hear better when the house is nice and quite. I grew up in an Italian household...but it was never really loud...there were times when my father would get loud, but that was about it.

Do you ever wonder about the people who come and go in your life? The job you had for years and then you left, and lost touch with all your co-workers? Or friends that you grew apart from, or ones who just vanished, never to call again? or a neighbor who moved away and you both vowed to keep in touch. I often wonder why they enter your life, and you think they will always be there for you and then they are gone...some leave with a bang and some just fade away...I wonder about them...some more then others and others you really don't ever want to think about again. So people you don't think about for a long time and then they do something to pop back up and you really haven't thought about them in a long time...why does this happen...why do they enter and leave...what is the purpose? I often wonder about that.

Jeff and I are talking about Julian's 1st birthday...I know it is over 5 months away...but it is fun to is going to be a big deal. It is very exciting to think about. For now I am just planing Jeff's 40th birthday party. One he doesn't know about...a suprise. Our very good friend Scott is going to be 40 4 days before, so Melissa and I are throwing them a joint party...they have the same friends so why is going to be so much fun! Having all our friends around to enjoy the night...I am going to be married to a 40 year old! WoW...How older man!

I am waiting for my good friend to contact me with ticket information to NYC for a long weekend to see the Yankee's for Jeff's suprise. He is going to be so excited!! What a nice trip it will be. We have friends...yes friends who live in the NYC area that we are going to hook up with! It is going to be a blast!

Have a great night!!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentine's Day!

Here he is playing with a toy he got from the shower...he loves it! Thanks Marla!!!

Hi everyone! Well we had a great day today! Last night we got tickets from a friend of ours to go to the Hockey we did! A nice date night! We met and saw my friend Jill's daughter...she sat right behind is a small world. (Jill she is just a wonderful young lady! and beautiful too!) Mom had already planned on having Julian over night, so we went! Today, we all went out for lunch with my grandmother...she is 85! So we went to lunch...I forgot my camera at home, so dad took some pictures with his camera...I will post those pictures this weekend. But I had to take a few here. As always...Julian was wonderful at the resturant. I just love when people look and comment on how beautiful and well behaved he is. I guess I am doing something right! He is so in love with my parents it is really sweet! He had an adorable out fit on ...his ralph lauren pants and a blue sweater from children's place. Too cute for words. Well it was another great day!

Monday, February 11, 2008


Could it get any colder??? I think it is 3 degrees out right now. I think Julian will be in a warm sleeper all day! Don't you loves those days...Jammies all day! Since I am working from home today (thank god) I too will be in my jammies! I am so thankful to have a home office set up here in our house. I am able to work and be with Julian at the same time. Life is grand!

Jeff and I think we see a tooth getting ready to pop through. Ouch...but I am sure it will be a relief for him! He is still eating fine. I thought he wouldn't but he is. And I think we have a thumb sucker here. I catch him every so often...sucking on his thumb. My brother was a thumb sucker...I never did. Maybe is just a phase because of his teeth. He stoped using his binki along time ago...and since he really is such a good baby, I have never though...Where is that binki when I needed it. Are you sick of me saying he is such a good baby? I am sorry if you has taken me along time to get here with my son...just having a son...that i feel the need in my heart to express how wonderful he is. But will he always be this good??? That is the big question!

Daddy is home from work tomorrow and it looks like snow is in th forecast, so I am not sure if I will be going to the office or working from home yet. Julian is spending the night at Nana and Papa's on Weds. night. I have a meeting on Thursday AM and then we are going out for lunch with Nonni...My grandmother for her birthday. Last year on her birthday we got a call for a was a little boy with a heart condition...I think of him often and wonder how he is doing. Do you ever think about the babies you were profiled for and either chose to move on or were not choosen? He is the one I think about most. I know that he is or would be ok with some surgery, and I am not sure if anyone in the agency did adopt him. Just thinking.

Have a wonderful day and if it is cold where you are bundle up!!! Hugs and so many blessings!

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Great day!

We had a great day today! We stayed home, Julian played in his highchair...if left the room for a minute came back and half his toys were on the floor...see picture below! Then Daddy came home, we got ready for a birthday party...Brenna's! She is 8...I can hardly believe it...I drove her mother to the hospital just before she delivered her and now here it is 8 years later! It was a nice party. Katie and Patrick are our best friends. We travel with them, we do bible study with them and they are like family. Julian was a good boy. We put him in his Jolly jumper and he was jumping away! Molly and Owen stopped by to hold his hand and help him bounce. It was so cute I had to capture the moment! Julian ate and then fell asleep in the den, we drove home and put him in his crib and he is still sleeping...he is such a good boy. Everyone loved him!

See his toys all over the floor? Poor baby, his teeth are really bothering him, but he is still a champ!

Owen and Molly with was so cute...they didn't know I was taking the picture until it was already done! That just makes my heart melt! Julian and Owen are about 2 1/2 years apart but when they are 5 and 7 It won't make a difference!

Personal Observation

It is obvious that this was an unhappy person who wanted to express their feeling so that many could see. However this same person would not call and talk to me personally. They know of the inconsistancies and half truths of much of what they wrote. As many of you know, it is very easy to" hit and run". Because it is easier then a face to face confrontation, where the other person has the opportunity to correct and defend themselves if needed. I have known this person for approx. 5 years and during that time we suffered 3 miscarriages one resulting in our still born son, which I delivered in my home. This person was there to help and I am forever greatful for that. I had always put her on my list for close friends. We had a mutual friend to whom I was much closer to. When she and I (mutual friend) went our separate was, this person took it upon her self to invole her self and take sides, which was totally unneccessary. The six week time period she spoke about, interestingly happened to be the first six weeks we had our new baby. For all new or recents mom you know what that 6 weeks is like...and I am sure you would have called your friend to see how she was doing with her first baby! (this person did no such thing! so it is obvious this person truely didn't care) My final thought is to the referance made to the "other tramps" who served at our annual holiday party...these girls were college students and more mature to handle what was needed for the serving guest alcohol, staying until the very end of the party when all of the guests left, clean up completely, which included dishes, napkins, garbage removal, and vacuming. The young ladies that assisted the year before, did a nice job, considering their age. It was after using these young helpers that we relized we need mature help. I did not feel that I was under contact to use the same girls year after year, which we have not. It was true that my parents helped out financially with the party, considering we were saving money for our adoption! I have always sent thank you cards, not only for gift received, but for other kind gestures.

It has never been my intention to use this blog as a forum. And it has never been my intention to hurt any of my friends children and if you know me you know this to be true. I am sorry if anyone who has read this blog has been subject to private matters between former friends. Thank you!

This is what I posted that before I deleted it due to her comments. Julian had his shots today and his 6 month well visit. What do all these people have in common...Bill O'Reilly,Jose Canseco, Randy Quaid, Seal,Tom Brady and Julian Parker??? Well They are all 6'4" tall! Well Julian isn't yet, but with the way he is growing he will be...that is what the doctor said today! Ok...drum roll....Julian is 28 inches long and 21lbs 12oz! Holy moly! I can't believe it...well my back does and so do my legs! THe Dr. is so happy with his development. So that is where we are. All I care about is that he is healthy and happy. And that he is. What is the most amazing thing would never know that he had them today...he is as happy as can be! He just amazes me everyday. I feel so blessed...Have a great weeked!

Friday, February 8, 2008

Happy 6th month birthday!!!

I can't stand it! He is 6 months old already! Where has the time gone? This is what I posted last year on this day...

Even Eugene is tired of waiting for the baby! He is totally exhausted from the wait! Seriously...we got them this bed that smells like pine and it is like cat nip...they actually say to each other "move your feet loose your seat!" It is the funniest thing. We love our dogs...could you tell!?

Yes...last year at this time we were waiting for our little baby...we didn't know it was Julian, but we were waiting...patiently at the point...further along...not so patient as you can all remember! Just a thank you, I don't think I have done this before...To all my friends in Cyber world, blogland, Carolyn's Board and real world...thank you for being there before, during and after our adoption of our sweet baby boy! You true friendship, unselfishness, and constant listening (reading) has been the best! I couldn't have made this journey with out you all! I have lost contact with some people who made the choice to be selfish during a time when they should have been a true friend...those of you who were here, showed me who my true friends are. (Jenny, Katie, Diane, Kim, Linda, Teri, Sue, Michelle, Paulette, Janet, Becky, Jodi, Jodie, Joanne, Jen Molly, Kristi, Duckess Jen and Julie) My friends before, during and after...I love you all! I have made so many new friends on here that I can't list them all...but I love you all and I am so blessed to have you in my life!


Doesn't it look like he is saying "cheese"

I was singing "Juilan's your birthday...your six month birthday!"

We have a non eventful day planned. We are going to the doctor's for his well visit then he gets the shots. I will let you know it goes.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

I have been tagged twice!

Ok...I have to say I am sorry...MOB aka Paula tagged me last week...this week Julie tagged me, so I am not going to do 14 things about me. Only 7!

Once you are tagged, link back to the person who tagged you.Post the rules on your blog.Post 7 random or weird facts about yourself on your blog.Tag 7 people and link to them.Comment on their blog to let them know they have been tagged. - MOB - aka Paula - Julie

Ok here goes:

1: I am terrified of thunderstorms at even wind storms
2: I hate to be alone...I am glad we have Julian, because I will never be alone again!
3: I don't like people holding Julian except if I offer to let you hold him.
4: I miss living at home with my parents.
5: I have become a germaphobe!
6: I speak my mind and tell you like it is.
7: When I am done, I am done! (if you hurt me or my family, you are no longer a friend of mine...goodbye!) - Kristi - Jen - Pep Samantha - Jen

Well...I have to stop at 5 everyone else has been taken! That was fun!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

26 weeks...

wow...that is how old he will be tomorrow...26 weeks old. That means 26 weeks ago, we were waiting for the call to come. I look back at last summer...we call it "The summer of Julian" We were match on May 31 and he didn't arrive until August 8th. Our entire summer was consumed with thoughts, hopes and dreams of our little man...actually...for the first half we thought he was a she. My mother reminded me of how stressful it was. We would go to their house to swim in the pool just to pass time. It felt like August was never going to get here. The Saturday before...August 4th his due date, we had a birthday party that day and a block party that night. We were so depressed...more like anxious then depressed that we didn't venture out to the birthday party, but stayed close to home. We went to the block party, drank wine, ate good food and enjoyed the company of close friends. I think back and wonder if they every got sick of me talking about our empending arrival?! But then I thought if I were pregnant they would see that we were ready to pop.

I will never forget the day we broght him home. My parents and grandmother, Jeff's mom and sister and her family were there waiting for us. The ride home was so surreal. I just remember walking as fast as we could out of the hospital, to our car and getting the heck out of dodge! My mother kept calling us...where are far away are you? I think the closer we got the lighter I felt. After we arrived home and our family had finally seen our beatuiful baby boy...the baby we had all dreamed about for so long...we all could now finally breathe!

After everyone left, and we waved goodbye...I looked down our beatuiful tree lined street to see our neighbors sitting on the front porch of "the mayor's" house...(he was really the mayor of our village for over 20 years) and there I was...walking down the street with my son in my arms only 2 days old, wraped in a blanket on a very warm summer night. I remember their faces as if it were yesterday...Peggy screamed, Cindy wepped and Dave and John got the drinks! After Julian met his many aunt and uncles...I took a walk across the street to Jenny and Scott's house to see if they were home. (On those warm summer nights when we are out watering our lawns and of us will say...anyone for drinks? Ok let's meet at Dave and Pegs house tonight) That is what our summers are like here, on our street...the best. I knock on the door and said "Aunt Jenny, Uncle Scott...anyone home...well Scott had his buddies over for poker night and Jenny was out...So Uncle Scott was the first in their family to see him. He took Julian in his arms and that is when it hit me...our boy is home. It is for real...this dream I had been living for so long is no longer a dream but reality. That night I walked home from our friends house, so proud...did it show...was I glowing? I felt like I was walking on air. It was the most amazing day of my I will never forget and a story that Julian will hear for the rest of his life...

Monday, February 4, 2008

New Blogging background... I am experimenting! I wanted to change my blog a bit and then I lost my old template so I figured I would start all over. I found this on and thought it was great. I am not crazy about the colors but, I love the bird in the tree! Ok...I have this thing that I like to do when I am a passenger in a car. I always and have always looked for birds in trees. I am not sure why, but I really started to take notice of it when we were waiting for Julian. Jeff and I would go on long drives to pass the time...hoping Julian would arrive sooner...and I would always spot a bird in a tree...they always look so peaceful and are we really all that different? I think maybe it is a momma bird looking for food for her babies...or maybe she is waiting for a mate to return. Or maybe she is protecting her flock. Isn't that what we do as parents? All the above. So...if you start seeing me change my know I am thinking of something. Hugs

Quick post...

So Jeff was taking Julian on an appopintment today and I was following them on my way to work...Julian looked so darn cute in the back of daddy's jeep...I had to go with them! Thank god I did. We had to wait and hour before we were called, and during that time, Julian wanted to eat and get out of his car seat...even Jeff said...he was glad I came, he didn't think he could do it himself...I KNOW he could have, but it always nice to hear you are needed! Have a great day!

Sunday, February 3, 2008


How can someone wake up EVERYTIME happy???? I don't know, but Julian does. It is a very rare occasion that he wakes up crying. I can count on one hand using 2 fingers that is how many. I am not sure what he dreams about, or if it is our happy faces he sees first thing that makes him happy. But when he wakes and Jeff goes to get him...I hear ont he monitor..."Hi cutie pie" and I hear Julian. That always warms my heart. Our morning routine is Jeff gets him up, so he is the first person Julian see's and changes his diaper and then tells me it is time to feed him. So I get up and do so. Then Jeff comes in and kisses us good bye and leaves for work. That is how it goes most of the mornings. Jeff loves to be the first person he sees...and since I am the last person he sees, I am ok with it! Why wouldn't I be?

We had a great weekend...the three of us home. We went to Uno's for dinner last night, Julian was always. He ate his applesause and cereal, had his bottle, sat on the table with us and then played in his carrier. I can't tell you how wonderful it is to be his mommy. He is the light of my life. I look at him and see the beauty of a baby, my baby, our baby.

Last year at this time Jeff and I were away at Niagara on the Lake...we didn't know it was going to be our last "childless" vacation. Since we started trying...I can remember saying..."I hope this is our last childless vacation..." I think if I would have known that, maybe I would have done more on it. But maybe not. Now, I am planning a big get away for Jeff's 4oth birthday. We are planning on a party with our friends. OUr close friend Scott will be 40 4 days prior to Jeff, so i think we are going to do a combined party...maybe to LazerTron...that would be fun. So we are looking into it. But I am taking him to NYC for a long see...The Yankee's. In Yankee can't not see them there if you a huge fan. And Jeff has been a fan since he was very small. Since they are going to be knocking down the stadium to build another...I think it is best to go now...this year~! I will keep you posted on our plans! It is a suprise to Jeff, so SHHHHHHHH

Hugs to all

Friday, February 1, 2008

Another crappy day!

SO it is another crappy day out! Yesterday was so nice with the sun shining we were able to get our roof fixed...thank god, because we would have been in real trouble today if it wasn't! My MIL came over to see Julian so I figure I would take some pictures and post them. Jeff only has 4 more days off from work. We are still debating on whether we are taking him to nana and papa's tomorrow night...I know they really want him, so i think he will be there so daddy and I can have a nice date night!

Look at that face! With my camera, it is hard to capture a flashes too soon...ugh!
Julian and his grandma...Jeff's mom
and here he is..the injured is hard to see the cast. We think he was playing on a toy in his cage...more like a house...and may have gotten caught. Jeff took him to the vet and it was a clean break and it only cost $100! This vet doesn't make enoguh money! How he did it I will never know. But I wanted to share this picture!
This look on his face kills me! I just think he is so darn beautiful! Don't you agree????? LOL