and all I can think about is how happy I am. I can't ever remember being this happy. Even when Jeff and I were dating and planning on our marriage...I was happy, but this is a different type of happy. Our consent hearing is on Tuesday and I am so excited. Our birth parents have already signed everything, so that is not looming over our head. As you know my brother was adopted, and my parents have this picture of them on the day of their adoption day...they look so young and scared. I want the same picture taken of Jeff, I and the baby. Only we will look older and not so scared. My parents were in their early 20's...very early 20's and this was back in 1970. Wow were things different...but not so different. Our social worker was over last week and she asked us how we would handle certain situations...I looked at her and said they way I have always handled "certain situations" I told her this is the norm for me. When I was born into my family, my brother was already part of the family, so having a bi racial child in my life is normal. I think now looking back, would having a full CC baby be normal for me? Most likely not. I remember walking with my mother hand in hand...I was little maybe 8 and I told her, I am going to adopt a baby when I grow up....I think we should make it a tradition! I was 8! Who would have thought that 24 years later, I would have a beautiful adopted son!
When I was holding him last night, I was thinking...this is what life is all about...being home with my 2 loves of my life...and my two dogs! I had such a rush go through my body. I looked at Jeff and of course...tears were running down my face...he laughs at me. I use to cry because we didn't have children...Now I cry because we do...poor guy...can't get rid of that crying wife!
Last night JP slept from 9:45pm till 4:00am then he ate fell back asleep till 8am and as of 11:30am he was still sleeping! I think our boy is growing!!! We are taking him to JC Penneys today for pictures...I hope it works out. He is such a beautiful baby, that sometimes the picutres don't do him justice. We are increasing his bottle size from 5oz to 6oz now...he is still hungry when he finishes his bottle. So we will see
I will put updated pictures on soon. I can't find my adaptor for my camera...ugh!!! SO bear with me! Hugs to all!!!